Posts Tagged ‘Sleep’

I can’t go to my weigh in this week as my weigh day is usually Tuesday and tomorrow we’ll be driving across the country to see my folks.  I was feeling a bit panicked about it and worried that I’d get off track if I didn’t see the scales going down, so I decided to take my measurements instead to help me stay focused.  (I also bought a pair of cords from Fat Face in a size 14 to cheer me up.  Three things I haven’t said for a while – I haven’t worn cords since the 90s, Fat Face possibly since the 80s and a size 14 since last year!)

So here are the results, 8 weeks (almost) to the day since I started WW:

Waist -16cm
Hips -11cm
Bust -11cm
Arms -3cm each
Thighs -6cm each

I am rather proud of that!  The cords I bought are also a little bit big – the 12s fit but not comfortably so I decided to buy the 14s and not kid myself about being a 12 yet.  But I am on my way!

Christmas was lovely; DD looked super cute in her little red dress (and obligatory humiliating photo of her inside her stocking) and everyone loved their presents.  DH did himself particularly proud in buying mine – I got Chanel no 17. Poudre (GORGEOUS), a load of Bobbi Brown goodies including their cream eyeshadow in Moonstone which I’ve wanted for ages, a beautiful cobalt blue coat from Monsoon and a kindle!  I never thought I’d want a kindle, being of the school of thought that books-are-works-of-art-that-smell-lovely-and-nothing-will-ever-beat-turning-the-page-and-it’s-a-crying-shame-that-computers-are-taking-over-the-world, but you know what?  Turns out it’s possible to love the real thing as well as the electronic version.  So far on it I’ve read Dark Matter, a pretty spooky ghost story by Michelle Paver, The Particular Sadness of Lemon Cake, a weird and wonderful story about a family with special ‘powers’ by Aimee Bender and some tripe by Sophie Crap-sella that was free.  I’m now reading Death Comes to Pemberley which is fantastic – I never thought P.D. James would pull off Austen’s voice but she really does and I’d thoroughly recommend it.  DH got an iPad from me and has, since staring at it open mouthed for a good ten minutes, pretty much ignored me ever since!  I feel like an iPad widow…

I’m now off to bed to have a bit of a read and get some sleep before our long haul tomorrow.

Oh, I almost forgot – DD has slept through the night for three nights in a row!  Please God let this become the norm…

I hope everyone’s had as merry a Christmas as we have!



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The Coven.

My best friends and I call ourselves ‘the coven’, after the then-boyfriend of one of us called us that one time.  DH says when we get together we speak so fast it’s like listening to us talking in Chinese, and I quite like the idea of a mini coven of Chinese witches, cackling away together.  We’re very like that, but without the witchcraft, or the Chinese!

3 of the 4 of them came to stay this weekend to meet DD and have a bit of a reunion.  (No. 4 ditched us for a weekend in Berlin…if you’re reading this I hope it was COLD without us!)  It was so lovely to see them, introduce DD and generally ‘chat shit in Chinese’ (direct quote from DH).  There was a brilliant half hour or so where everyone was sitting on the floor painting their nails and poor DH was looking at us in mock despair…I know he loves it really though.  I’m the first to have a baby so there was a lot of cooing and cuddling and baby-talk, and DD absolutely loved it.  She was so chilled out for the whole weekend (apart from a half hour spell where she was fed up with being in the sling in the cold, bless her) and really smiley.  I think she liked all the attention!  They successfully wore her out too, because last night she slept from 8.15pm to 6am…OH THE BLISS!  I hope they come back soon and work the same magic spells.

I was a bit worried about sticking to the diet over the weekend as it’s always hard when you’re eating out or entertaining, so I saved all my weeklies for the occasion.  We went out for a Thai meal on Friday night and on Saturday we were out for lunch and then for supper I cooked risotto and we consumed a few bottles of champagne and wine.  I’ve pointed as faithfully as I could (bearing in mind a fair amount of guesswork was necessary for the Thai meal) and I think I’ve stayed within my points – just.  It will be interesting to see the effect on my weight loss this week, as I’ve never used all my weeklies, (well, 44) before – usually I don’t use more than about 20.  To be honest, I don’t feel like I’ve lost anything, but given that in the old days I’d probably have gained a couple of pounds from a weekend like that I’m hoping that I’ll have stayed the same weight instead.  Even if I haven’t, it was definitely worth it.  A treat weekend is important now and then!  (Especially when DH was lovely enough to do both nights ‘on duty’ so I could give myself my first hangover since 2010…ouch.)

So I’ll raise an imaginary glass to my lovely, crazy, nail-varnished, champagne wielding, Chinese, magical coven, who I love. x

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To shred or not to shred?

For the past couple of days, but particularly today, I’ve had really painful knees, and I’ve also had a little bleeding.  (One of the things noone really tells you about before you give birth – 9 months without a period and then oh-my-God they all come at once and go on and on and on…nice.  It’s called lochia and it’s bloody horrible, so to speak.  Mine stopped about 3 weeks ago which is why I was a bit worried this week to see it again.)  I wondered if I had been overdoing it with the daily shredding and did a spot of googling.

Ah.  Whoops.  Perhaps I should have researched this before starting up with the brilliant-evil-Jillian.  To be fair though, my six week check with the GP consisted of him saying ‘Are you ok?’, me replying ‘Yep’ and that was that.  (Other mums I’ve spoken to had full examinations, stitches looked at etc.  Noone likes to get naked in front of a stranger but I do wonder whether my ‘check’ was a bit half-hearted on his part!)  So I just assumed that that was the all clear and I could go ahead and start exercising.  I’m beginning to think now though that my body maybe isn’t ready, what with the gap in the abdominal muscles and the relaxin still coursing round my joints – hence, I suspect, the knee pain.  I’m taking tonight off from shredding to see whether I feel better tomorrow, but I’m gutted because I’m the kind of person who really needs to continue with something once I’ve started, otherwise it’s too easy to quit altogether.  This applies to lots of things in my life – over the years I’ve come to the conclusion that I’m a bit inclined to addiction.  I quit smoking very successfully by getting addicted to the high of being a non-smoker, and then made the classic mistake of thinking I could have ‘just one’ because as a non-smoker I could handle it.  Nope, that was another three years of smoking right there.  When I quit because we were trying to conceive I had to say to myself that that was IT forever.  (A bit like an alcoholic always being an alcoholic even if they don’t drink, I will forever be a smoker not having a cigarette.)  And similarly, of course, I cannot have one biscuit.  Oh no, it’s the pack or nothing.  So quitting shredding even for one night means I’m very likely to not do tomorrow’s work out either, and then once I’ve not done two, I might as well not do the third night, and so on and so on.

I think I need to address this as sensibly as possible and try not to punish myself if I do have to quit.  I’ll see how I feel tomorrow and then either a) continue and continue properly or b) DECIDE to quit until a later date (which I’ll put in my diary so I can’t ignore it when it comes around) rather than ‘taking it a day at a time’ which will only make me feel like I’ve failed.

Psychologically it’s important for this to be a decision, rather than a failing that creeps up on me.  Either way, I WILL complete the 30 Day Shred within the next year, whether it’s this month or when my joints are back to normal at some point next year.

On a totally different note, DD slept for 7 hours straight last night – I woke up very confused!  It was brilliant, though she cut out the 11pm feed rather than the 3pm one so I was still up in the middle of the night, and I really hope she repeats it tonight, preferably cutting the later feed this time.  DH is taking tonight’s shift (on a work night, bless him) so I can get some rest – fingers crossed for a good night!

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Well tonight I went to my first ever Zumba class and was very pleasantly surprised!  I was quite nervous as I have all the rhythm of a deaf monkey but I actually got along fairly well, although compared to the more seasoned class members I was rubbish of course.  I’m hoping that as I feel more confident with the moves over the coming weeks my hips will start to move in a more fluid way!  Despite my lack of dance skills it was a lot of fun and the music was great.  I definitely worked up a sweat, and my Weightwatchers pedometer tells me I earned 10 activity points, which is brilliant.  I don’t actually eat my activity points but it’s nice to count them up, and I only get a few each day from walking, usually anything between 2 and 8.

The class is held in a hotel about 20 minutes walk away from us which is great because it means DH can look after DD after work and I can pop down there without having to bother with the creche in the gym – she is too young for that I think and I wouldn’t feel comfortable leaving her with a stranger yet.  I’m going to see if the hotel have any other classes as while it was great exercise I’m fairly sure once a week won’t have a massive effect on my weight loss.  If there’s a Monday or Tuesday class I can go to too that would be great.

DH told me he’s told his colleagues that I’ve lost 8lbs – he’s proud of me and it’s sweet but I’m so embarrassed!  In a way I suppose it’s no different to sharing it on here, but somehow it’s a bit cringey his work mates knowing how much weight I’ve lost as it inadvertently points out to them how overweight I am.  Oh well…

I’m making spicy parsnip soup for supper tonight – it’s currently simmering in fact.  It’s very easy: roast some parsnips with some cumin, add to stock with red pepper and onion, simmer away and then blitz with a processor (though it’s better with some chunks to it).  Yummy, and all for only 5 points.

We’re trying to get DD into a bit of an evening routine as she usually feeds in the early evening, falls asleep on one of us (and won’t go down in her basket instead) until a late evening feed (usually at about 11pm) and then goes down in her basket beautifully and sleeps through until she’s ready for another feed at around 3 or 4 in the morning.  We’re trying to recreate the circumstances of the later feed at the earlier one, as she clearly doesn’t mind her basket at that point.  I think the key is the darkness she’s usually fed in at that time, so tonight we’ve fed her in the nursery and left her in there with the baby monitor on.  It’s a bit nerve wracking as normally whenever she’s asleep it’s in the same room as at least one of us, but when we go to bed we’ll move her back in with us (at risk of waking her up!) and in the meantime we’re checking on her about every 3 minutes!  So far so good – she had a bit of a cry after about half an hour in her basket but we managed to soothe her with some cuddles and tummy rubbing.  Fingers crossed she’ll stay down now for a few hours and DH and I might actually get an evening alone together…that hasn’t happened since before she was born!

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